Sometimes I do not know I am having an anxiety melt down, until I am in the middle of the storm. It usually comes after I have had a rough couple of days. The first symptom is the hate that creeps in, like an acid eating away at my good vibes, first slow, and then fast. When I try to throw good thoughts at the negativity, the pessimism eats it up like a pack of piranhas. Panic begins to set in, because the anger is strong, and I know that I am not in the right mind.
This particular anxiety meltdown happened when I was out, looking for some new running shoes. I tell the store clerk at Play Makers, thank you for the help, and I exit quickly. The day is sweltering hot, and sticky, and it adds to the chemical imbalance already swirling in my mind and body. I go to some shade, and draw in deep breaths. I understand that the attack is not going to go away anytime soon.
I have written contingency plans, for such occasions. In the past, when the anger/depression storms would come, I did not have enough sense to get myself help. I would stay at work, and trust the emotions were legitimate. Those were the times that I would lose my job, because I would brilliantly confront my boss or co-workers. Or lose relationships, because the anger I felt had to be passed on. I could not let those around me be happy, when I was so miserable. It is what psychologists call “transference.” I had to keep the storm from radiating to others.
The contingency plan, that I have prepared, has saved me from myself multiple times over. While I was under the tree, outside of Play Makers, I pull out my paper. It reads, “Mental Storm Emergency.”
- Get away from the situation
- Take deep breaths
- Do not make any big life decisions until the storm has passed. That includes calling up girlfriends, friends, or bosses
- Get home, if you can. Avoid highways and leave a big cushion of space between you and other drivers. Do not engage any drivers in a negative way. Keep breathing deep, and just get home.
- Once home, drink a large glass of water
- Eat some healthy food
- Get into bed, put on self-hypnosis recording, and close your eyes. Try to get some sleep
- If sleep is achieved, and the storm has settled, call up one of your friends on the list (people that I trust, whom I can talk to) if needed.
- Keep getting proper, sleep and nutrition and exercise (if needed) until the storm has succumb.
In the contingency plan, I also have a list of excuses to give to people, in case I need to leave a situation. Unfortunately, in this day and age, a lot of people do not consider mental illness a real disease, especially depression. If someone has a sore throat, they are good to go, but a serious depression, well you better stay at work buddy!
I suggest you make contingency plans for yourself, especially for times when you are having a really bad day. It is next to impossible to think rationally, when things get emotional. It is nice to have a list, already thought out, that you can follow.
I want you to be safe and happy. Tell me what you think! I hope you have a wonderful day
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