Neither ashamed or proud, or who I am

I thought today it would be good, to tell you who I really am, and where I come from and why I have chosen counseling as a career.

I have posted another video on this website, it is from a class assignment in my Master’s program. I thought the assignment very much paralleled with what this website is all about. It explains a bit of my past, something I am neither ashamed of, nor proud of.

My past, is something of a deep frustration, a cycle of hardships and anger.  A repeat of, get a job, get depressed, lose job, and then find another job. I knew I had to change, I had dreams and aspirations. As each day passed, those dreams began to fade more and more into the darkness. I had to make a drastic change, and I did. I wasn’t getting the help I needed, and I knew that, so I decided, (and probably against all professional advice) to become my own counselor. I read, and I read and I read on how I could change my life. It was a slow process, at first I read without the hopes of anything changing. I felt like it was impossible for a transformation to happen, especially so late in the game. But something did start to happen, I started thinking a little differently. I started some new skills that actually came in handy, especially when it came to curbing the anger. I learned to not let things bother me so much, and I learned a little of that old sage, “forgive and forget.” I learned that just because I think and feel something, it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s true. These little nuances of relief, these little nuggets of wisdom, started changing my life around.

Never in a million years, did I ever believe I would be on my way to becoming a counselor. Especially when I vehemently disliked life so much at one time. But little by little, change happened. Those inches eventually turned into feet, and then those feet turned into miles.

I am here to tell you, if I can change, you can change. No matter how old you are, or what you have gone through in life, positive change can happen. It is about celebrating the small victories, the little steps. The phrase that, “a journey of a thousand miles, begins with one step,” means a whole lot more to me, in retrospect. Just one thought in the right direction, can change the whole outcome of your day. It really can. There is a million ways to look at any situation, life is subjective, so why not choose to look at things in a good light.

Please click the picture below for the video:


I still have a long way to go, but I am proud for how far I have become, and you should be proud of yourself as well. Life is hard, for all of us.

So I hope you enjoy my little video below, please respond, tell me what you think.


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